I hate when i'm troubled and try to avoid it. It literally haunts me, i run around in my own head trying to take a bend and hopefully lead my problems into a false chase. I'm not afraid of facing facts, the disappointment followed by heartache isn't something i constantly want to deal with.
There are days when you feel you're at your peak. Those are the days i've been waiting for. I feel like i'm heading for a downfall. not too sure but i'm definitely in for dive, somewhere, somehow. Things just got worse. It had to rain. Least that's something i can gain some comfort in.
I've had a lot on my mind lately a little too tired to really go into detail. Been playing a song on repeat for a couple of days now, the lyrics are genius. The way the words are put together, its like there's a bond, as if they were made for each other. Okay i don't know what i'm saying. My body clock is back to being shitty all over again even though i'm really trying to get it back on track. It seems my sleep can never last more than 8 hours without breaking. I feel like such a wreck, i'm not in place. Everyone seems to be down nowadays, is it the break-up season or something? Many are not looking forward to Valentine's. Everyone's either fighting or leaving one another. I try to be oblivious to the things people say but at times it gets so oppressive i feel like punching something. Time does do us all justice in umteen ways. obviously it hasn't worked for you. I'm not to blame for your loss, your yearn so please, leave me mentally. Maybe i'll go visit my parents after chinese new year or something. Home doesn't feel right without them. Just thought i'd do a short update. Gonna go back to bed now, night!
OMG I H8 MY MOM. She just called me to tell me the durian season's here and i have such a sinful weakness for durians. Durians anal the world HAHA.
I get so bored at home sometimes i take my camera out and take pictures of random stuff. I can never stay at my laptop long unless i'm looking at pictures from mostly flickr. I think i love photography. When i'm lying around listening to music, i wonder if it would be okay if i dropped Mass comm for photography.
A little crazy isn't it? I have so much on my mind. Maybe i'll bun my hair up today. Also i never realised how obvious my cleft is! Gonna head out, bye!
